Monday, August 2, 2010
Well, in thinking of this I began to ponder the many years that I've been silent about the secret and interesting part of my life. I trusted no one and was always afraid to share for fear of being exposed. It is amazing that once you embark on a journey of self-discovery, you'll not only discover yourself but also the people around you. I recently confided in a friend of mine that I was going through marital difficulties, and eventually the reason why... A friend that I have know for well over 10 years, we went to undergrad together, were in many student organizations together, college roommates, and even attended the same churches together, hell he was the best man in my wedding. Well this friend while I have known for sometime, about his attraction to the same sex, he didn't know about mine or so I thought. We lived together for several years, but never spoke about the "elephant in the room." No we were never attracted to one another sexually, just good friends, we were friends 'til the end. That day, he shared with he always knew of my desire and attraction to men, but really thought I had mastered it and always wanted to know how I did it. He stated how I had immersed myself in church and spirituality, and so he thought God had really given me victory. He went on to tell me about his life and confided in me the many encounters that he's had with men in the church and even run-ins with well know bishops, pastors, etc. The conversation literally blew my mind, but I was totally liberated in finding out that I was not the only person dealing with the issue.