It has been quite some time since I have been intimate with a guy, or should i say released some sexual tension. I'm starting to think that my well has run dry. Partly because I don't want to deal with the games, the lies, and ultimately the prying eyes of my wife. She is an enigma that bears further explanation in a later post. However, living the down low lifestyle for such a long period, it always causes me a bit of anxiety to know to wonder if I'll ever run into someone out in public that I've had a sexual encounter with. How would i react, how would they react, would i speak, would i just simply ignore that we saw each other, what would be the case?
There have been, fortunately, two other run-ins in Wal-Mart, but nothing worth writing about and neither was the guy!!
But recently, my life has been in a transitional place, and I received a text from an guy "Bernard", I had once had an encounter in my past. He and I had reconnected after meeting several years ago via a mutual friend at a conference in Minneapolis. I definitely was attracted to him at the time, and I sensed that maybe he was interested in me as well but chalked up to him just being friendly. We exchanged numbers and emails, and that was the end. I never heard from him for at least 4 years. (at that time I was still in denial about the fact that there were other men on the down low, and because of that many times i missed the signs. as a matter of fact I still do) Fast forward four years to the present...recently, while on my journey of self identification, I happened to be on myspace, when i received a request from him, wow talk about a blast from the past. He was more distinguished now, and married with a son!
It started off as a friendly chat, but things eventually turned into a discussion about the mutual friend who recently came out to his wife, family, and his church that he was pastoring and has since closed the doors. Turns out he fell all in love with some dude from Seattle and now he's moved to the west coast. Anyway, the conversation, quickly turned into how good each of us looked from our pictures, and subsequently how each of us were attracted to one another back in the day but brushed it off because we were in the presence of our mutual friend. The conversation lead to sharing naked pictures via text message and email, and occasional phone sex. It got to the point that Bernard and I planned to get a hotel room together and now experience what we'd been texting about for months. I got the hotel room and checked in and sat waiting in the parking lot for him to arrive.
When he arrived, I was impressed, good smelling cologne, attractive, extremely masculine, and a nice bulge that i could see in his jeans. We go to the hotel room and strip naked first, kissing, then licking each other's body parts, but the whole time he seemed very nervous. I was a little bit nervous too because every 10 minutes his wife kept calling or texting lol!! To say the least we didn't fuck but we did a whole lot of foreplay.... All this for some damn foreplay, you ask... I know right! To say the least that was the last time I saw him, or got off with him in person, but we exchanged the occasional text and email.
Well last week while i was away out of town, he sends me an email and says
"I know it's been a while since we've seen each other..> I'm horny....send me a pic"... I replied with a cool i'm good man, and not in a position to take a pic.. holla later. I ignored his advances to say the least but he insisted. Well this week, he texted me and said, "clearly, you weren't impressed with our encounter, are you interested in a 3 some, i got a fine drop dead gorgeous nigga who wants to hook up?" this intrigued me because I'm not too big on 3 somes in the first place, but i wanted to see who this fine, drop dead gorgeous nigga was.